I Feel Good

I waited until today to write this post so that I could honestly say that I do feel pretty good. It has been the longest week of my entire life. I am sure that most of you have heard by now but, surgery went great. The team of surgeons called the pathologist into the surgery to test the tumor right then. They also wanted to make sure they got enough of the tissue removed in case it was cancer. The preliminary report showed no cancer. I remember when I woke up in recovery, the doctor told me the tumor was benign, but I thought I had dreamt that until I saw Tad a few hours later. I was hoping to only stay one night in the hospital, but two night later I came home. It is incredible what they let you come home with now. i had a tube going into my belly button that was draining blood and fluids and I had two other tubes going into my stomach that were pumping pain medication in constantly. I finally got to shower on Friday. This was truly the highlight of my week. That gave me the biggest boost yet. So now that I am tube free, I am feeling much better. I am sick of sleeping on my back, but I think that will take a good long time to get to my stomach. It feels like someone has just taken all my insides out and tried to put them back together again. Although, I am sure that is what they did to me. I can tell I feel just a little better everyday. The hardest part of all of this is not being able to hold my babies. I hate feeling dependant on others and that is exactly what I am. Good thing my kids have a nice dad, great grand parents, and nice aunts and uncles. Poor Wyatt just keeps holding his arms up to me and crying. That about kills me. We have been so blessed through this trial. Heavenly Father has truly been watching over me. The timeline of my life leading up to this is beginning to make more and more sense to me. I can't imagine feeling like I have, so sore and tired, and thinking I had cancer and I had to return for treatments. I feel like a weight has been lifted with the news of no cancer. I know I can do anything now because of this news. I can do hard things.

Another Update

Since I started posting about my medical issues I will keep everyone updated. This keeps me from having to repeat myself. I met with the surgeon yesterday. I am scheduled for surgery on Monday. The doctors did not want to do a biopsy of the tumor. They said it needs to come out anyway, so we're headed to the OR. The tumor is located in the lowest muscle in my abdomen. Because of this, they have to go in and take the entire muscle out and then do reconstructive so my guts aren't falling out. So I will then have a man made muscle in my stomach. The good news in all of this is that only about ten percent of these types of tumors are cancerous. Tad and I feel like the odds are in our favor. I will have to stay at the hospital at least one night and maybe two. The hardest part is going to be not lifting anything over ten pounds for at least four to six weeks. Wyatt has got to weigh 25 pounds. Good thing I have such a great husband, family, and friends. Thanks for everyones prayers, phone calls, and willingness to help. We couldn't do this without all your help.

4-Wheelin'

We really needed to get away, so we decided to go 4-Wheelin for the day. We made it to the top of Willard Peak. It was such a great view and a pretty ride. The kids are all so good on the bikes. Even my crazy busy Wyatt holds so still. They make it easy to take them.
They really do love each other.
Wyatt loves the bikes! He slept half the way up. The bumpy roads put him right to sleep.

Grandma and Grandpa came up with us. We helped them break in their new bike. Got it good and dirty for them.

School Fun

Kamden really started school last Friday. This is Kamden and his friend Cameron. They are so lucky to be in the same class.
What good student watching their teacher, Mrs. lawrence.
This isn't the greatest picture, but here is Wyatt. He wants to be as big as the other kids.

An Update to My News

I finally heard from the Huntsman Center, I have an appointment next Friday. This first appointment is to meet with a surgeon that specializes in cancer. I sort of panicked when I heard this was where I was going, but I have since calmed down. They reassured me that there are plenty of people that come in with benign tumors. I have also realized that if this is cancer that we are dealing with, then what better place is there to go? I guess I will go to the experts on cancer and put my trust in them. If you know me well, you know that I am not a real emotional person, well, this has brought every emotion to the surface. The other day I couldn't quit laughing about this. It didn't feel like we were talking about my body. I felt like I was talking about someone else, and I just felt bad for this person we were talking about. Yesterday, my emotions turned to tears. I couldn't help but think of the things that lay ahead of me. I hate to be away from my kids even for a minute and the thought of having to leave them with family and friends while I go to doctors appointments about kills me. My tears would not stop. Today, I feel ready to take it all on. I have a strong body and a really high tolerance to pain. I know I can do anything. A lot of people do this everyday, and I can too!